Blogger, Read Thyself!

When I started this blog in September I had these lofty ideas that people would read my blog, feel transformed in their own goals, write to tell me so, and the cycle of encouragement would begin. Eventually I'd gain nationwide acclaim....(sorry, getting out of control here.)

Bottom line:

Yeah. Right.

The reality is a far different. I got knocked on my feet by a bad cold, ate and drank my way through Paradise Village Resort in Puerto Vallarta, and lost all will to continue this journey. And when that happens, all these great encouraging thoughts came flooding to my head.

Yeah. Right.

Those positive thoughts may have been there but they quickly lost a bloody battle with the negative thoughts that came barreling in with each piece of pizza or cheese steak. Manufacturers should write that in the nutrional information:
Carbs 52 g
Fat 10 g
Thoughts of Failure 33 g
Self Loathing 87 g (or whatever the "thought" units of measurement are, you get the picture.)

And the ugly thoughts stayed. They moved in. They had "ugly Rita" parties every morning and night in different parts of my brain. And when they party, these thoughts are LOUD. So loud that they disturbed the thoughts about being a teacher, a sister, a Christian, and a decent human being. Everyone joined the fiesta. It was getting out of hand.

But how to shut down da' noise and da' funk?

Back to my original plan. People will read my blog and be inspired. Blogger, READ THYSELF!!!Hmmm....what's that she said about a choice? What's that she said about just obey yourself when the emotions tell you to quit? Hmmm...she's a wise woman who had lost 20 lbs. I think I'll take her advice.

The alarm is set for 5.
The workout clothes are on in leiu of pajamas. (Trust me, it works.)
The water bottle is chilling in the fridge.
The socks and sneakers are by the bed. (I tried sleeping in them...no good.)
The blog is read for inspiration.
The prayers are said for grace. Would you add to them, please? It's so hard.

Here we go again. Turn on the Black Eyed Peas and "Let's Get it Started."